Jomoda

Today I got internet. 

2012 has been a great year. A year of firsts, of triumphs, and of truths. At first glance 2012 was just like every other year, too fast. In the 366 days 2012 gave me, I seemed to make the most of them. This year I got my car towed, my license suspended, my first wreck, and moved back to Mississippi. I learned to play the tenor ukulele, how to be self reliant, and relearned to how to make friends. I joined weight watchers, learned how to make healthier lifestyle changes, and by the end of the year I lost 80lbs.

2012 is the year I told the truth. Reality can be hard pill to swallow and being the person who has to deliever a heaping dose of it sucks. This year was the year I came out to my brothers. They are the first of the family to officially know but I’ll spread the word more in the upcoming year.

2013 has some big shoes to fill.

I much as I hate this place I need to like it. Or at least for time being. I’m moving back.

For school.

As much as I love that place I need to leave it. It’s too expensive and I need to take advantage of a lower cost of living.

So the verdict is in. I’m here to stay. I’m headed west around Xmas for my things.

Welcome back.

I need to go back home. I don’t belong here. Sure there are a million reason why I should stay but I can’t handle being in Mississippi anymore. The cons out way the pros.

I don’t feel stable anymore. I feel like was doing well and getting on track and not thinking these thoughts and then one thing comes along and I cannot deal. I naturally want to run away and go back but I also want to over come it. I don’t want to give up and take the easy way out.

I am better than this.

I am not alone.

I got this?

Like how to become an exceptionally boring person.

Doing this. I hate saying goodbye and honestly I should be used to it.

I just find my groove here and now I’m heading back to the east.

I miss my loves there and honestly the thought of a long reunion I can’t fathom.

This sucks but in a good way. Lol

Things are amazing. I’m officially down 40lbs.
This is good stuff.

I’m quitting my job and I’m moving back to the sippi.
This is great stuff.

I’m growing up.
This is incredible stuff.

When did I become such a pussy?

I had three cigarettes and I spent 30 minuets hugging my toilet dry heaving….

This is a sign.

I get the hint…..

Cruel bastard.

from hell. 

As of today (3/18/12) I have been on weight watchers for exactly one month.

In one month so much has changed. I’ve learned a lot about myself and what it takes to get motivated.

In one month I’ve lost 26lbs.

26

In my wildest dreams I never thought this to be possible.

All my life I’ve always been the big guy. In one month I’ve one giant step to being someone different.

Someone better.

So here’s to another month of making better choices.

I cannot wait to see what’s ahead of me.

This week I lost 3.2lbs

For a grand total of 20lbs

20lbs in 3 weeks

Damn..

Its been a great year for music. 

new fun. and new minature tigers.  

DA DA 
dAMN 

I weighed in and this week I lost 4 lbs.

In total I’ve lost 16.8 lbs.

Good things.